There are things which you will never do again. Life has changed so much in a very short time.
Our ability to go back to what we did before does not exist. It is simply not possible.
This can be good.
Take at look at your old schedules and how you spent your time and energy. Compare it to what you are doing now. What can you keep and repeat going forward? What has stopped and will never be done again?
You might think that you have been brave to have gotten this far. And in some ways you have surprised yourself tremendously.
But now you are creating a new reality based on what truly matters to you. Now it is time to start surprising everyone else with the brave new you.